Mountain View Library
Mountain View, CA
Thursday, May 9th, 7 pm
Burlingame Library Foundation
Author Lunch
Saturday May 11th, Noon
Draeger's Cooking School
Menlo Park, CA
Wednesday May 5th, 6:30 pm
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Monday, February 11, 2013
Shake n' Bake
I was twelve the first time I ate fried chicken. My mother
was away for a conference and my Aunt Homa invited my father and me for dinner.
I always enjoyed going to her house because she not only had a wicked sense of
humor, but a delicious hand—her cooking was tasty. She kept au courant with
songs, film, recipes from Good Housekeeping sent to her from abroad. I also
loved that Aunt Homa stood up to my dad if he so much as whispered a complaint
about his wife’s absence. “You should be so proud of her,” she’d snap.
On this February night, she served us crispy golden chicken
legs with parsley potatoes and a green salad. The simplicity of this meal
would’ve struck an Iranian guest as miserly. A measure of a ‘better’ host is
the surplus of food, a galaxy of dishes on a buffet around which your guests
will orbit sampling everything, crowding their plates with pyramids of rice and
stews, pickled vegetables and yogurts, bread and feta cheese, herbs and salad.
I think my father may have even dared tease my aunt about her scanty offering.
That first bite of fried chicken was unlike anything I had ever tasted. I closed
my eyes and chewed slowly to understand the crackling outside and the tender
inside. I glanced at my father devouring a drumstick, his mustache glistening. Quickly
I ate everything else on my plate—saving the best for last. No sooner had I finished
than my aunt served me another piece, then another. Like love, I would never
tire of it.
Later in the kitchen when I was helping Aunt Homa clean up,
she asked if I wanted to know how to make her chicken. An invitation to the
ball would not have excited me as much. She handed me pen and paper to write: Rub chicken legs with olive oil, salt and
pepper. Put Corn Flakes in a bowl and crush the flakes with your hands. Toss
the chicken with the Corn Flakes and lay flat on a greased baking dish. Bake in
a 400-degree oven until they’re
golden brown. She didn’t tell me to pre-heat the oven, or how many chicken
legs, or how long to bake them, but taught me that anyone who cared could
learn.
My dad did the grocery shopping while my mother was away. We’d
been eating a lot of eggs in her absence, so I asked him to buy chicken. Corn Flakes,
however, were not so easy to come by, but one nearby market kept a paltry
selection of stale American cereal. When my father came home from work, I
served him ‘Kellogg’s chicken’ with radishes and a sliced cucumber drizzled
with lemon juice, then watched him chew happily the first meal I had ever made
him. He was the hardest working man I knew and usually never came home before
ten o’clock which gave me plenty of time to experiment and tweak the only dish
I’d learned to cook. Night after night we feasted on chicken until my mother
came home, surprised to find her enameled stove spotless. We resumed a more
balanced, colorful menu, which after days of browned bird legs, felt like a
carnival.
Just because I’m a chef doesn’t mean that we eat duck a
l’orange every night. Even though in my family we talk about what’s-for-dinner
at breakfast, there are days when I have to fall upon my tried and true. The
other night, after a busy day, I crushed a couple bars of Weetabix (if you’re
wondering why I have that in my pantry, it’s not as bad as Twix), and tossed
seasoned chicken legs with the crumbled flakes in a Ziploc bag. And since the
oven was on anyway, I roasted some fingerling potatoes, too. A butter lettuce
salad with Dijon vinaigrette and voila! Dinner was ready. Weetabix, we agreed,
is a happy substitution for Corn Flakes, breadcrumbs, or even real fried chicken. At the table, I made
a toast to my auntie who knew that less is more and you’re never too young to
cook for your parents.
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Bisquick
Raise your hand if you ever took a
typing class in high school. One or two hours a week dedicated to tapping keys
in a windowless room, all girls except for two boys in the back row. I was of
the Hunt and Peck variety, which meant I sacrificed speed by glancing away from
the copy to find and press each key individually instead of relying on the
memorized position of the keys. I probably took the class because I thought it
would have something to do with writing, not transcribing at record speed. Nevertheless,
it came in handy in college when I stayed up all night to finish term papers—the
ding of the carriage return and clickety-clack not only made good company in
the still dormitory, they provided just the right little-engine-that-could
motion that kept me on track.
In the early nineties, I upgraded
to a portable Brother electric typewriter to write a business plan for a
restaurant. At the time, it seemed harebrained—an impossible dream (I was told
many times), but once I started pecking, the words nudged each other forward—I
think I can, I think I can. And when the lease for L’amie Donia was signed (oddly
the space used to be a typewriter repair shop), we shoved a desk into the
storage room upstairs and it became my office where I wrote menus with Brother.
Downstairs carpenters hammered and drilled booths and bar tops, while I perched
in my nest hatching summer dishes for a July opening.
For our first anniversary, my
husband gave me a vintage Smith Corona (he’s never been subtle in urging me to
write). It has a nice clatter even with neighboring arms jamming when pressed
at the same time. In a crazy dream not too long ago, every key I pressed spurted
batter instead of ink on the page. With every mistake I was forced to scrape
away what looked like buttermilk pancakes off the carriage with a paring knife.
I won’t even address the symbolism here, but what a mess! Talk about think
before you write.
Brother retired sometime after my
sister gave us a bright blue iMac which sat like a spaceship on my desk urging
me to hop on board. Well, there was no going back after that, but I miss the
bell, the springing forward of words that can’t be deleted, the commitment to
staying on track. I love my laptop, but Brother never made it easy for me to
walk away, erase, cut and paste, or check email in the middle of a paragraph. And
when the day was done, you had something to show for it.
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
Walk With Me
In the shopping center near my
parents’ old apartment, there was a flower shop that stood apart from the rest
of the storefronts, angular like a kiosk dropped there accidentally. Home for
the holidays on winter break, I carefully filled an application there, even
listed my hobbies (cooking, reading, writing), left out where I was from, and
confessed to my lack of experience. I could identify roses, carnations, and
tulips but couldn’t tell apart poinsettias from amaryllis. It didn’t matter.
When I handed it to the lady behind the counter, she asked if I had a driver’s
license and sighed with relief when I opened my wallet. Never mind that I
hadn’t driven since I totaled the used ’72 Firebird my parents had scraped
together the funds to buy for my graduation. She called her husband who was out
making deliveries to give him the good news. He rushed back to give me the keys
to a white Dodge van in the parking lot with it’s rear doors thrown open
displaying several wreaths with huge red bows destined for a house in Atherton.
I was terrified. The van was like a
small bus. I drove ten miles an hour with my foot on the brakes, peering over
the steering wheel, sweaty palms clenching it like a lifesaver. How do I get to
Atherton? Where the hell is Atherton? I had an address on Oak Grove and a map
open on the passenger seat. I was lost. Circling Menlo Park, stopping to read
the house numbers, realizing too late I was in the wrong town. Joyous when I
finally found the house, I parked and carried the enormous wreath to an iron
gate that opened to a long driveway. I heard the bark before I saw the German
Shepard bounding toward me, all fangs, snarl and spit with nothing between us
but laurel and holly, so I bolted like a scared rabbit back to the van. It was
noon when I had left the shop and four-fifteen when I pulled into their parking
spot, pretty scraped up from trying to squeeze into the driver’s seat with a
holly wreath.
The proprietors, Mr. and Mrs. Wells,
didn’t fire me. Instead, they let me stay in the shop to help take orders and
learn to assemble flowers and wreaths in elaborate baskets. I was glad for this
paid apprenticeship and they never asked me to make another delivery. Their
children were grown with families of their own, they had both graduated from
Berkeley and I suppose they were glad to have a student from their alma mater
around. They once asked me where I was from originally and I lied, of
course. No one in her right mind would confess to being Iranian in the middle
of the hostage crisis.
My day started at nine when I helped
Mr. Wells pull all the Christmas greens out front, all the while quizzing me on
their names, then leaving me to arrange the giant clay pots of cyclamen and
boxwood topiaries. Back inside, Mrs. W would offer me some of her Earl Grey tea
and we’d go about the store and in the fridge “to shop”, as she liked to say,
for that day’s orders. We filled the hours quickly. At noon I would be sent to
the deli to pick up their usual (pastrami on rye) while I ate a tuna sandwich
from home. They were generous with their knowledge and I proved to be reliable
as long as I didn’t have to drive. After lunch, I’d help pack the van and Mr.
Wells would leave to make the deliveries, always rolling down the window to
call out “Now you girls hold down the fort 'til I get back!”
And we did. I helped guys who were
buying flowers for their dates, ladies looking for pretty centerpieces for
their dinner parties, and once, a nice man with shaggy hair who stopped in to
buy some ferns and camellias. Together we carried the plants to his pick up
truck and he followed me back into the shop and handed me a check. When I asked
to see his driver’s license, his face lit up with a smile. I took down the
number like I’d been told to do and he left whistling. Closing the drawer that
evening, Mr. Wells gasped, “Neil Young was here? Here in my shop? Donia
did you see him? Martha, did you help him? Look, look, look at this
check!” He caressed the signature. “Who’s Neil Young?” I asked. He stared at
me, incredulous.
Already dark by five thirty, I would
bring the greenery inside and carry a watering can around the store, giving the
plants one last drink. My father would often take an evening stroll and walk me
home. More than once I saw him standing a few yards away in the waning light,
wearing his dark wool coat with the collar turned up, hands shoved in his pockets. I’d
wave. He’d nod and look away, quietly sobbing. His shoulders told me—oh how
they shook. My father buried his face in his coat and waited for me to finish.
We walked home in silence and you would think I’d have asked “Why are you
crying, Daddy?” But no, I was too afraid of the answer: because it wasn’t meant
to happen this way, because I dreamed a different dream for my daughters,
because you have dirt under your fingernails, because you are too young,
because you’re giving up your youth, because. His daughter should not
have to work in a flower shop, for god’s sake! But my parents had taught
me everything I knew about hard work. And what about everything they’d given up
for me? Their home, their country, brothers and sisters, friends, patients,
work, family albums, all left behind so I could be here, in this world of
possibilities, to live in it, free and in charge of my own becoming.
By the time we reached our front
door, one of us would wonder aloud what my mother had made for dinner and the
spell was broken. My mother opened the door and pulled me in for a hug and a
sniff. She said she liked the wintry smell we carried inside and while I washed
up, I’d hear them in the kitchen carrying silverware and glasses, the evening
news coming on, and the smell of rice and stew that drew us to the table where
we were no longer unmoored. The television glowed and while we waited for
Jeopardy, I told them about my day, sometimes embellishing an encounter to draw
a chuckle. My mother nourished us, anchored us, and slowly we felt the ebb of the emotion that had blindsided us out there.
Three weeks went by and it was time
to go back to school. I hated leaving the cozy routine of the shop. They even
had a little goodbye party for me. Mr. Wells, always generous, said, “Invite
your mom and dad!” But on my last afternoon, it was just the three of us, and a
carrot cake. Neil Young on the stereo. A few weeks later, I wrote to the Wells
and told them where I was from. Originally. They wrote back and said they
didn’t care.
Thursday, November 1, 2012
Ancient Fruit
Quince, Apples, and Pears 1886 Paul Cezanne
My friend Julia and I met a
thousand years ago. Just days before I opened my restaurant L’Amie Donia, I ran an ad in the Palo
Alto Weekly looking for line cooks and dishwashers. My office was a desk my
sister had hauled out of her garage and tucked into a corner of the cozy
storage room where I wrote menus and listened to NPR nestled between one
hundred pound bags of flour, five gallon bins of cornmeal, gunny sacks of
lentils, rice, and cannellini beans. Slowly, slowly, I had been stocking our
pantry and preparing for our opening, scared out of my mind, running on coffee
and adrenaline. Julia came by one morning holding
out an application she’d only half filled. A tall, skinny, tanned blond, with
strong ropey arms who sat on the floor even though I offered her my chair
(there wasn’t room for two chairs), wearing a white T-shirt that smelled of
laundry soap with faded jeans and Tevas. Who
is this girl? I thought. She had just arrived home from a long cycling trip
through Washington State, when her mother had shown her the ad and here she was,
sitting cross legged against a case of wine, sizing me up with pursed lips
(they didn’t stay that way for long). I could only offer seven dollars an hour.
Okay. What time shall I be here? When
I arrived the next morning at seven, she was already there, sitting by the
front door on the ground in another clean white T-shirt, her hair in a loose bun.
I unlocked the door, we walked in, and for the next two years, she never left
my side.
To say those first few months were
hard is like saying war is hard. Ask a soldier to describe the front lines, and
if she’s come home unscathed, perhaps you’ll hear how poorly reality compares
with what she remembers as the swell of daunting tasks intensified and
swallowed her whole and that she would not exchange any of it for the easy industry
of an air conditioned office with a coffee maker and a microwave in a break
room. Even on grim days when incident and no-show dishwashers collided, we
summoned grace in the kitchen, and I’d go home only to return just a few hours
later, playing with the keys in my pocket, ready to do it all over again. I’m
here because you’re here, you go, I go, put the coffee on, crank up the ovens, roast
the veal bones, blanch the fries, freeze the dough, cook the apples, strain the
stock, check the walk in, mise-en-place, mise-en-place, mise-en-place, whatever
we can do, we will do, and no one leaves until it gets done. Yes chef.
Within this orbit, rich with
friendship and work, cooks come to know each other all too well, and it wasn’t
long before Julia showed her mettle. This shy, freckled girl swore like a
sailor and cooked like a couple of grandmothers, reaching back to essential
ingredients before they were gussied up. Ask her to make pot roast and she’d
sigh, intoxicated from the beefy aroma, as if it was already on her fork. And she
provided the soundtrack to those long hours we spent prepping before the doors
opened. Annie Lenox, The Pretenders, Sinead, so loud, the lady next door
complained. Goodbye NPR. Alchemy and curiosity made Julia a wonderful chef—like
her freckles, she was born into her talent. So when she was certain that I had
a very capable brigade, she went off to take the helm of another kitchen in San
Francisco and we remained war buddies with plenty of scars and mangled joints
for souvenirs.
The other day, I came home to find
a humungous bag of lumpy, yellow quince on my porch. No note. No sorry I missed you. I reached and put
one right up to my nose to sniff its lemon rose scent through a gray fuzzy coat.
It didn’t take me two seconds to know who they were from. Like I said, we know
each other all too well. A different fellow might have forgotten how crazy I am
for this ancient fruit. Julia remembered.
I’m making this Quince Cranberry
sauce to take to Thanksgiving dinner at my sister-in-law’s house. That is, if I
don’t eat it all before then with yogurt and granola.
Quince Cranberry Sauce
8 medium size quinces, peeled,
seeded, and cut into eighths
1 ½ cups sugar
2 Tablespoons honey
2 cups water
Zest and juice of 2 oranges
Zest and juice of 1 lemon
4-5 cardamom pods cracked
2 cups fresh cranberries
Peel and core the
quince very carefully, removing any fibrous pieces. Save a tablespoon of seeds.
They’re packed with pectin and will give your sauce a lovely honey consistency.
In a large
saucepan, combine the sugar, honey, water, citrus juice and zest and bring to a
simmer on medium heat. Wrap the crushed cardamom pods and a tablespoon of
quince seeds in a piece of cheesecloth and place in the warm liquid.
Add the quince and
place a piece of parchment paper with a 2 inch hole cut in the center on top to
keep the fruit immersed and allow steam to escape. Simmer for an hour until the
quince are tender and have begun to turn rosy.
Gently fold the
cranberries with the poached quince and simmer on low heat another 45 minutes
until thickened and glossy. Remove the spice pouch. Pour into jelly jars, seal,
and keep refrigerated.
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
Lessons in Anatomy
Picasso Bullfighters
You have to wonder sometimes if
we’re really in the twenty first century. We may have devices in our palms that
can instantly connect and inform us, but judging from our political discourse,
particularly in the realm of women’s health, we have become so prudish, obtuse,
and uninformed, it may well be the sixteenth century when women donned chastity
belts and men decided their fate. My mother was a midwife who had seen her
share of happy and tragic childbirth, and she urged an open dialogue about sex
that today would be labeled as “TMI”. In this era of contentious debate over
our reproductive rights, I’m reminded of a rainy afternoon she spent giving me,
what you may call, too much information.
I came home from school to find my
mother waiting for me on the couch. The coffee table was set with cups and
saucers, a teapot, and a plate of currant cake. If I were six, I would have
thought we were having a tea party like we used to, when she sat in a circle
with my dolls and teddy bears waiting for me to hand her a dollsize cup. At
eleven, this request to come to the living room seemed too formal and I worried
she had received a call from school forcing her to leave work early.
My mother sat on the edge of the couch in her
cream colored wool skirt and a silk blouse with a pattern of pink buds on a
green vine. She couldn’t be prettier, my mother, with her slim ankles and sheer
hose, a notebook open to a blank page on her lap. Without fidgeting, she dove
right in. “Now darling, I want to explain to you how human beings reproduce.
You may have some ideas, you may have heard things from your sisters, but I’d
like to tell you the facts.” Well, she needn’t have worried, because my sisters
were as forthcoming about the secrets of the human reproductive system as the
Shah’s intelligence ministry, speaking in code and stopping mid-sentence if I
wandered into their rooms. My mother was a nurse and a midwife schooled in
England. “Right, you see this?” She took a pencil to draw a diagram, stretching
her vowels as her pencil curved around the uterus. “These here you see, are the
fallopian tubes – a bit like a bull’s head, hmm? And these here are the ovaries.”
I sat close to her, my eyes glued to the drawing. Bull’s head? She erased the right ovary to match the left one. “See
these sacs? They hold all your eggs.
And it all starts here. When you get
your period…” Period, I had heard of it
in the bathroom from some of my advanced classmates, but until that afternoon,
I had no idea what nature had in store for me. I didn’t know I carried so many
eggs around (my entire allocation) in those tiny pouches. “You, me, your
teachers, the kittens next door, everything
came out of an egg.” Hunh.
My mother poured tea and stirred
milk and a teaspoon of sugar in each cup. Then she sliced two pieces of cake,
one larger than the other, knowing how I loved that yellow cake studded with
currants. I had come in from a cold rain to this room with a lush Persian rug
of reds, rose, and turquoise vines, where a radiator sputtered, and my mother
waited to share a remarkable secret. For the next hour or so she filled blank
sheets with impressive drawings of male organs, female genitalia, and what
happens when they meet. Hard to believe, really, that I had made it to eleven
not knowing this secret. Suddenly all those games of Doctor I’d played with my
cousins seemed suspect. Had they known? Was I the simple one in our gang? Or
were we all innocent when we played House or Teacher?
That my mother was extraordinary
was not clear to me then. Iran in 1973, six years before the revolution, may
have boasted modernity, but the subject of sex was barred, mired in ancient
taboos. In a country where sex and shame are synonyms, where a woman carries
the weight of her virginity like an iron curtain, there is little chance for a
girl to know anything about her sexuality except for its implications of
submission, surrender, and shame. The saying goes: “Better to bear a snake than
a daughter.” Girls are corralled and cloaked in the guise of protecting the
family honor. My mother did not want her daughters to grow up under a veil,
refusing to surrender to a skewed natural order dictated by men to suppress
women, turning the curse of being a woman into a blessing, opening my eyes
before I could fall prey to ignorance, so I could stride through life unencumbered.
With a unique approach to sex education, she intercepted the cultural taboos
inflicted on women. My mother made her own rules, abiding by a personal code of
conduct. On her nightstand was a worn copy of Simone de Beauvoir’s The
Second Sex. For years I had stared at the cover, leafed through its
pages, disappointed to find no pictures. The summer I turned fifteen, she
suggested I read it while on holiday. What, until then, I thought was some sort
of sex manual, turned out to be a handbook on how a woman can become a
sovereign self in a patriarchal society.
“Come,” she said “I’ll show you the cabinet
where we keep the Kotex. You should know how to use them in case I’m at work
when you get it.” We returned to the
sofa for another slice of cake. She chuckled to herself before reminding me of
an earlier anatomy lesson. There had been a long stretch in kindergarten when I
refused to wear pants, convinced that if I did, I would turn into a boy. I
attended a coed international school with teachers and students from all over
the world. Every day I insisted on wearing a white cotton summer dress my
mother had sewn for me with a pineapple pattern. By late autumn, my mother had
had enough. One afternoon, she staged a viewing while I was busy lining up
dolls for a round of my favorite game, “Mrs. Harkins” (my kindergarten
teacher’s name). I enjoyed playing the role of the teacher immensely, tapping
my dolls with a ruler, asking them to copy what I drew on a chalkboard easel,
scolding them for slouching or coming to school with unruly hair. Knowing I’d
become so absorbed in role-playing that I would forget to pee, my mother said
she poked her head in to remind me to go to the bathroom. Indeed I stood agitated
with my legs twisted, all the while yelling at my dolls to keep quiet. Turning
to leave, I warned, “Mrs. Harkins has to pee! Stay still!” When I opened the
door to the bathroom I shared with my parents I saw my father in the shower
with the curtain open. “Hello there!” he waved cheerfully as if we had just run
into each other at the park. But for the frothy soapsuds that sat on his chest,
he stood naked in the steam rising from the scalding water in the tub. Stunned,
I forgot I had to pee. “What’s that?”
I cried. My father was a doctor and completely casual about his private parts.
Like lifting the hood of a car to show his daughter the engine and the battery,
he continued to explain how all boys had a penis and two testicles, some
bigger, some smaller, how you should never kick or punch a boy there unless
he’s bothering you, and never allow
one to touch you, elaborating on mammals, hair, breasts, egg sacs, you name it.
I’m not sure how long I stayed listening to my father’s lecture, but Mrs.
Harkins left the bathroom somewhat bewildered. The pineapple dress was washed,
ironed, and folded into a bag of hand-me-downs, and my mother celebrated by
buying me a pair of itchy wool pants.
The subject of sex did not come up
again until the fall of seventh grade. Our new science teacher, Mr. Prewitt,
had driven his motorcycle through Turkey to Iran. He wore wire-rimmed glasses
and dark brown corduroy pants with suede ankle boots and walked the length of
our classroom in long, measured strides, stopping to push back long hair behind
his ears to make a point. I adored him. So forthcoming was he with his
knowledge that he made our other teachers look stingy, sticking to their
carefully composed curriculums. In Mr. Prewitt’s class the bell always seemed to
ring just minutes after we’d begun, and each day I left wondering what he had
in store for tomorrow. In November, he announced that we would finish the
semester learning about the human reproductive system, reminding us to bring
fresh notebooks and be prepared to do some drawings while ignoring our stifled
gasps and snickers. Having had an extensive introduction to the subject over
tea and cake, I felt confident. Little did I know of the turmoil brewing behind
the scenes in the principal’s office. Not having sanctioned preemptive sex education,
parents were in an uproar. The principal had asked my mother to intervene
knowing she was well liked, respected, and as a nurse, could persuade the
parents that their kids would only benefit from knowing the facts. What
followed was more tea and cake – only this time she hosted forty anxious
parents, and her diplomacy paid off. How comforting it was over the next few
weeks to sit in Mr. Prewitt’s class, to follow the path of his yellow chalk as
he drew the now familiar shapes, and copy them in my brand new spiral notebook.
I owe that A+ to my mother.
This fall with the election looming
and the on-going archaic discussion over contraception, abortion, and Planned
Parenthood, I am reminded again of my mother’s eloquent anatomy lesson and her
insistence on a sovereign self. I daresay that midwives are better equipped
than politicians to insist on a woman’s right to make decisions about her body,
but I can’t help wonder which candidate would speak to his children with ease
and candor about these issues and ensure the rights of our daughters and grand
daughters. The fact is my parents taught me about sex the same way they taught
me how to swim, drive, fold laundry, sew a button, and boil an egg. It was
sensible, matter-of-fact, and always with a touch of humor. And thanks to Mr.
Prewitt, who traveled across the world to another continent to teach a bunch of
awkward, pubescent seventh graders about sex, a few of us managed to grow up informed
and unencumbered by ancient dogma. Their pragmatism is sorely missed.
Monday, May 14, 2012
Morning Cake
The first book I bought for my son
was In the Night Kitchen, by Maurice
Sendak. He wasn’t born yet and he didn’t have a name, but the ultrasound gave
us a clear picture and the very next day, I was off to Kepler’s bookstore. I
even inscribed it right there at the register: For my son and his good appetite. It hardly mattered that I had discovered this book
in my twenties—it’s supple and squishy illustrations of the bakers
who bake till dawn so we can have
cake in the morn, spoke to me. At the time
I was working ungodly bakers’ hours, sleepwalking the streets of downtown San
Francisco to my job in a basement kitchen where I made enormous tubs of muffin
batter.
So while my husband went to the
paint store for cans of sky blue, my mother bought spools of yarn, and my
sister brought over her daughter’s rocking horse, I started my son’s library.
Soon his bookshelf held an impressive collection, from The Polar Express, The Giving Tree and Stone
Soup, to Rascal, The Phantom Tollbooth, and To Kill a Mocking Bird. But the very first, and the books we read most
often, were Sendak’s, such that Max, Mickey and Pierre were part of our family.
We read them once, we read them twice, and we always made our chicken soup with rice.
Last year, I listened to Maurice Sendak’s last interview on Fresh Air while driving home. It sounded like Terry
Gross was choking back tears, too, when Sendak said, “Almost certainly I will
go before you so I won’t have to miss you. I will cry my way all the way to the
grave. Live your life, live your life, live your life.” Remembering his earlier
interviews, when he said the monsters in The Wild Things Are were modeled after the adults in his life (he had
found grown-ups grotesque and never wanted to grow up to look like them with
their yellow teeth, big ears and hideous hairs coming out of their noses) I
wondered who looked back, when, as an old man, he’d catch a glimpse of himself
in the mirror. Defying the world of adults, I bet he saw a ten year old boy.
Lately, my son has been spending a
lot of time at the stove on Sunday mornings— inventing pancakes with sautéed
bananas and chocolate, berries and yogurt, and last week, with a potato he dug
out of the backyard (a compost gift). I stay out of his way, resisting the urge
to butt in and flip the bananas, busying myself with the coffee press and
taking photos of his creations to send to friends who inevitably reply “The
apple doesn’t fall…,” and all that and I say, “Nah, he just has a good
appetite.” I predicted it. More than a few have asked for his deep dish pancake
recipe. So on Sunday, we poured milk in the batter and remembered Maurice
Sendak, reading In The Night Kitchen out
loud for what may have been the thousandth time. It was Mother’s Day, so I sat
on a stool with a cup of coffee watching the careful preparation of morning
cake with the season’s first cherries.
Thank you Maurice.
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